Father In You

A Letter of Hope

After I watched Mary J. Blige's "Behind The Music"...sometimes you think that a situation can't resurfaced, but it can. After the documentary was over, I couldn't stop crying because I realized that I have this hurt in my heart for my uncle. My uncle was my inspirational as a little kid. In addition, he is also my GODFATHER. He was the man that I looked up too. But when I turned 18 things begin to changed. My uncle had his own life, but he started to forget about me. When I was younger, my uncle always took time with me. I really looked at him as my father, because he gave me the love & attention that I wanted from my dad. But during my first college experience, I dealt with a terrible situation. With situation I thought my uncle would be the one that would have my back, but I was wrong. It caused my him to lash out on me; which caused our relationship to become violent. After our violent encounter, it caused our relationship to crumbled. For 6 years, our relationship has been very limited. I thought I could just move on with it, but my uncle was such a father-like to me that it's not easy to let go. It's like I been raised around women, which cause me to be very sensitive. There are MEN things that I would like to discuss with someone, but I can't. But I wish it could be my uncle. I want to get close with him again because I feel that we need to, but only GOD knows the right time.


MARY J. BLIGE - FATHER IN YOU
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D3ER0JuuczI&feature=related

RIP Amy Winehouse

RIP AMY WINEHOUSE

(September 14, 1983 - July 23, 2011)

When I found out that Amy Winehouse died, the first thing I did was called my mother because we loved "Back To Black". This album got me and my mother through bad times. "Back To Black" came out during the times my grandfather was going through his life ending battle of stomach cancer. Her music was very therapeutic for me and her because we would drink and just sing along with Amy. Her music was bring brought the older and younger generation together. It was very 60s soul pop. I remember the first time we listened to the album together it felt like heaven. Songs like 'Just Friends', 'Love Is A Loving Game', and 'Tears Dry On Their Own' were so soulful. 

We were all waiting for Amy to come with another album, but we all realize that Amy had a problem with drugs, so she was sent in and out of rehab, but it didn't work for her. Clearly the drugs took Amy to her death, she was a talented woman and just like the other talented artists like Janis Joplin, Kurt Cobain, and Otis Redding their legacy lives on. 

Jay-Z said it best all ended by "Hollywood"....

RIP AMY WINEHOUSE

MY FAVORITE AMY SONGS

Just Friends

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cZY9wsicus8

Me & Mr. Jones

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nibiavizfrU&feature=related

Addicted

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YzNosK82NSs

Valerie

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cQVxFPxYyw0

He Can Only Hold Her

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4gHsX5sVt-s

MY FAVORITES AMY PERFORMANCES

Love Is A Loving Game Live (So DAMN Soulful)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eu7uPHtTJ4o

Rehab Live

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GgfrxZlrYR4&feature=related

You Know Im No Good

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QmV6_oc2lwM&feature=related

TGIF

Friday's Quote of The Day

"A person who dares to waste one hour of time has not discovered the value of life"

Friday's Songs of The Day

New School

'It A'int Over Til It's Over- DJ Khaled, Mary J. Blige, Fabolous, & Jadakiss

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cO5Fk8xnHP0

Old School

Ain't No Stoppin Us Now- Mcfadden & Whitehead

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DY0tsKCB4lc

It's Friday everyone be safe out there this weekend and be blessed.

Songs For Moment...Just A Feeling Part 5

I NEVER WANNA LIVE WITHOUT YOU-MARY J. BLIGE

This song is my favorite song of ALL TIME, period. You can hear the soul, pain, and passion in Mary's voice when she sings this. When I first heard this song back in 94, this was the song that I always remember. When my mother used to play the "My Life" album, I used to sing along with the whole album until it got to track 9. This song I would just lip sync and let Mary have the speakers, because I could never sing this song like Mary {NOBODY WILL so don't try it}. Now that I am 24, every time I hear this song it feels like the first time, it sends chills up my spine. I remember when my mother took me to Mary's latest concert, Mary did this song in a chair, I cried all the way through it. What made it so special Mary never did this song on any of her tours.

JUST LISTEN TO HER & CLOSE YOUR EYES FEEL IT, LET MARY TAKE YOU AWAY FOR 6 MINUTES

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l50ljpa4Boc

OTIS-KANYE WEST & JAY-Z

Now on twitter everybody was talking about this OTIS song with Kanye West & Jay-Z. But I said I would wait until I hear it on the radio because I wasn't the best fan of H.A.M, so I was nervous. But everyone started talking about it. So a girl I called my musicalsoulmate (@DMV_Duchess) told me about the song early in the morning. I felt that it was a must listen because me and her have the same musical taste. So I decided to give the song a chance, what I heard was incredible, I can't stop listening to it. First I was excited because it was my favorite song from Otis Redding "Try A Little Tenderness". {Chris Brown didn't make it first, younguns} Then, I felt that the song brings back that old hip hop, which makes you feel so good. Also, Jay-Z & Kanye are going H.A.M on this. {But I feel Kanye got him} When my mother called me and told me she like the song, I knew it was great, because she is very picky when it comes to new music. 

HEAR THE INCREDIBLE SONG, FEEL THE SOUL OF THAT OLD HIP HOP

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kRfBqPOURmc

(If you want to download)

http://hulkshare.com/5vo5oyh1fqtl

TOOK MY LOVE-PITBULL & RED FOO VEIN & DAVID RUSH

This one might confuse you a little bit, because its a club song. I really didn't learn about Pitbull until one of my best friends, Nikita, introduced me to him. Doing our college years, she used to listen to him. After hearing Give You Everything, I felt like I needed to get his album. His album makes you want to go to a Miami club and dance all night long. But "Took My Love" was clearly one of the songs that stood out. It's like that are pouring their soul out on a dance track. And actually I love it, it makes you pour all your anger out on the dance floor for someone that took your love.


ROCK TO THE CLUB "HEARTBREAK" SONG {LOL}
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uTI_aoJO0Uc

REAL TALK

MY RELATIONSHIPS

Hey blog family, I haven't wrote a blog entry in a while, but it seems that I didn't have any inspiration, but after a weekend of "fun", I was finally inspired. You know when you have a person in your life that you thought love and cherished you. But in the end, you found out that the person wasn't what you really thought. It has been times in my life when I thought I found someone in my life that I look to spend the rest of my life with but it seems that I get hurt in the end. That's why it's really hard for me to get into a relationship because I am scared to get hurt. When I get into a relationship I put my all in, but it seems that I never get it in return. It seems that all the people that I get involved with I'm either betrayed, lied to, used, or not appreciated. Also, when I get involved with someone I'm very honest, but it seems that backfires on me. But I feel that you should be honest, so you leave no secrets, but it seems no one is honest or ready for honesty these days. I know that I'm a very sensitive guy, but that's my character, which I feel that I should not have to change for anyone. But like everyone tells me, in due time the right person will come into my life that will accept all my flaws and strengths. Hopefully it comes, because I feel that I am a great person.


The Songs That Explains My Different Relationships, because Music SPEAKS FOR ME!!!
(These People Know Who They Are)


My First Love- Avant & Keke Wyatt
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sJ5ZsOBjaZQ

September-Deborah Cox
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6J9uajPLKYw&feature=related

If You Leave- Destiny's Child
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=as5IUAOl6pg

Mary's Joint - Mary J. Blige 
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZW0I134D4DY

Round & Round- Mary J. Blige
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w5K8b-EvX6k

Where Is Your Heart- Kelly Clarkson
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T-MHBJvysSg 

Maybe- Kelly Clarkson (DESCRIBES A LOT)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OhWUHlEfY4s

Because of You Live- Kelly Clarkson (Explains My Emotion)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ToW56Hj3U0w 

Set Fire To The Rain- Adele
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FlsBObg-1BQ

The Love I Never Had- Mary J. Blige
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2EkAwL0TM_c

Best Thing I Never Had- Beyonce
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6yiMdIGsxNQ