Happy Birthday Desmond

THE MAN THAT I CAN ALWAYS COUNT ON

DESMOND TYSON GARVIN 6/9/78-1/4/10
FOREVER IN MY HEART

Starting it off with a song...

Janet Jackson- Together Again

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WJ-c6PnIUcc

MY LETTER TO YOU:

Wow I still can't believe you're gone. It seems like just yesterday when you came to my school to take me shopping for food. Desmond I swear I could count on you for anything. The men in my life was not very dependable, but you were. You help me get through a lot of things. Even though, you had a life of your own you always made time for me. After my experience at Delaware State, you understood that I needed the support from a man because I couldn't get from any from the men in my household. As a result, when I got to Capitol College anytime you were in the area you made it a priority to stop and check up on me. You don't know how much that meant to me. It seemed like after my Delaware State experience, I lost all the men that I once looked up to in life. But you were there filled that void, I want to thank you for that. 

After Delaware State, I enrolled into Capitol College which was the best thing I could have done. The first year started off rough because my father passed, so it seemed like every weekend you appeared on my campus. It started to get a little overwhelming because people on the campus would tell me "your cousin Desmond is outside". You started to become known on the campus even though you didn't even attend. I was grateful to have someone else other than my mother and grandmothers in my corner. Desmond you spend so much on me doing my college years, I would be paying you off for life. You showed up doing the times when I was on my last. Meanwhile, I would tell my mother everything was okay, knowing that it wasn't. Many times you were my outlet because you know how me and your Aunt Ervennia get into arguments, you were the person I can talk to.

Now, it came to me getting a car because I got an internship. Now you know that was big headache, but you finally got me my 93 Honda. With getting that car, I knew you listened because you knew I wanted a Honda, and you actually ended up getting me one. Even though, the money issues caused problems, but at the end of the day you found me a car. As a result, I got the internship and ended up getting hired with the company after graduation. 

In my last year in college, it seemed that things in your life have changed. You started to slow down. Even though, you still manage to come check on me, even though I had a car. During this time, you started to get sick but I didn't realize it. I can recall when you and my mother came for a weekend, things was different. Normally, when you dropped my mother off you would leave and we won't see you for the rest of weekend, but this particular weekend you stayed out for a couple of hours then came back. Then you was sleeping all day, which was very strange. But my mother and I thought all that driving finally caught up with you, with us not knowing that you were sick. Fast forwarding to my graduation day, you was lying around because your sickness was starting take a toll, but from the picture you and I took you couldn't tell. As I stated before, I didn't realize that then, which sometimes I regret. Sometimes I cry because I feel that if I would have realize those signs, I could have been saved your life. 


Now, Thanksgiving 2009 was the last time I saw you alive. It was hard for me to go to the hospital to see you in so much pain. I knew that was you on the hospital bed but you spirit had already left us. You knew during that hospital visit I couldn't look at you in the face because it would have brought tears to my eyes. But the funny thing was you knew how to help my mother get her money on the computer. So, I remember hugging you and saying "Bro get yourself together so you can help me find a place in Maryland", you looked at me and said "I will", which was the last time I heard the sound of your voice. Finally, I remember being at work and my mother called me with the news that you passed, I just hung up the phone went into the bathroom and cried my eyes out because the man that I can always count on was gone. When grandma asked me to speak at that funeral, it was the hardest thing I done, to this day will be the hardest speech I have ever done.


Above all, Desmond I want to tell you I miss you so much, it's like a hole in my heart that's missing. All these great things in my life you are the main reason for it happening. You helped me make it through my college years and you helped me become a better person. I want to thank you for being the man that I could count on. Happy Birthday, Love Your Little Brother.


THESE ARE MY DEDICATION SONGS TO YOU!
(Videos will be all live performance so you can feel my emotion in heaven)


Whitney Houston-A Song For You(Live)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZyRMWjpCZnE


Mary J. Blige-Missing You(Live) *you know I love MJB* lol
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CSZiDgRl5pI


Boyz II Men- Its Hard To Say Goodbye To Yesterday *you looked like Shawn*
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uzjdiDasLkk